Why Him?

Yes you loved him , i know that and so does your heart . And i know you can't see yourself being with someone else other than him . But why should you spend all your time sitting at home , bawling your eyes out . Have you ever wondered if he honestly thinks about you ? It hurts knowing it . For sure it hurts , when he's out there falling in and out with others girls . He's gonna hold her hands tightly because he knows you're watching him and it's killing you . Don't let him get to you because of that . 

So what if he isn't checking up on you and talking to you ? If he ever did , he is going to be talking about his new girlfriend and make you jealous . Do you ever want to listen to it ? I bet you've great friends around you and a wonderful parents . Give it time . Let your heart heal . He will be sorry . For leaving a precious like you , when he sees you with other guy holding onto your hand closely . He will realise how happy you are with your guy just by looking at your face with a beautiful smile . He will realise he had done a big mistake by letting you go , by making you jealous , by making you cry all alone at night . 

I guarantee you , he will be sorry . Till then don't spend all night waiting for his call or for his texts which will never come up . Get your own time and heal all your pain , because its not worthy if you're there thinking about him and he's there making you feel the pain . I know it hurts when knowing you're not the girl that's making him smile , knowing you're not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last person before he goes to sleep , knowing you're not his wallpaper on his phone , knowing there's not gonna be any more late night talking and arguing about who loves who the most . But remember time heals pain and so does your heartbreak .  

Soon you'll realise you don't want him anymore , he won't be the first person you call when you're upset , he won't be the one to put a smile on your face . I know it hurts , in fact a lot . But you got it girl . Hold up and hang in there . Better days are coming for you . You're gonna show him you're better off him and you don't need him in your life . And make him realise that he made the biggest mistake by letting you go and that you never really needed him . 

Stay happy and keep smiling through your pain ' better days are coming up love .

xoxo - nirah